Ooooh I feel like I’m in a similar space with my body and movement right now! I also used to dance on IG stories every morning as a kind of ritual after my first born... and I used to get so many people say to me how much it inspires them to move. Now with two little ones I’m telling myself the limitation is time but in reality I think I’m scared of meeting my body where it is at... in it’s achey and tense presence... despite teaching yoga and movement for years. It’s such an interesting thing to observe!!!! Hope your back heals, thank you for sharing. Xx
Thank you darling. And oooh yes, that fear of meeting the body where it’s at... I know it so well and I’m not sure it will ever go away. I think part of the fear is having to face potential emotions of disappointment or frustration, but also I like to think that it’s also fear of being in the vulnerable presence of something we know hold so much power. We’ve devoted to our bodies time and time again, and gotten to witness the strength, the softness and the awe of what she holds, so many times, and for me, the knowing that she is likely going to take me somewhere entirely new once again can feel a little daunting. I know my body is powerful, and so I often fear meeting her knowing I’ll likely get a glimpse into what she’s also capable of. I’m not always ready to meet that potential. But I’m working on it :) so much love to you and thank you for sharing xx
I love that you have that perspective about the power element... that touches on something I don't think I have cognitively acknowledged but it feels really resonant to me. There is this power in the body that is beyond our control and that is scary at times!!!! I will contemplate this more I am sure, thank you. xx
I feel like I’m caught in between two selves at all times and don’t belong in either place. Like if I were to really show up fully, I’d be alone. Or I’d be harming someone out there.
The more simple limitation is - no one wants to pay for what I want to offer. In other words, most of the things I like to do (art, care work etc) aren’t going to make me rich (like owning real estate or something).
I relate to this so much - never enough of one thing to fully belong. But I’m also realising that most people feel this way about one part of themselves or another. And right beside it, are a million things or people or places or identities we do belong to unequivocally, but we don’t focus there because it’s so normal for us. Definitely something I ponder often.
I also feel your words about your work and how it relates to being rich. I feel like the online space and the general messaging of our time has contributed to so many of us feeling like we need to find that perfect thing that will make us millions, when really it doesn’t work that way. Becoming rich is actually super boring and so incremental that it would never be IG worthy. I’m guilty of wondering ‘why bother’ when things feel so slow or seem like such small steps towards my much bigger and grandiose goals. But it’s a trick - that way we never actually move, start or get the enjoy the process of working on our art.
Yes! I love the idea to focus on the places we belong but don’t notice because it’s so natural. I think that would be a great practice and wonder what would open up.
The process is worth it on its own. You’re so right. I never cared about money in the past and in my efforts to learn more, I’m also grieving the ways I haven’t taken those small steps in the past. There’s so much emotion tied up in it for sure. It’s definitely helpful to consider how much we’re sold a message (of wealth) and not just products.
Ooooh I feel like I’m in a similar space with my body and movement right now! I also used to dance on IG stories every morning as a kind of ritual after my first born... and I used to get so many people say to me how much it inspires them to move. Now with two little ones I’m telling myself the limitation is time but in reality I think I’m scared of meeting my body where it is at... in it’s achey and tense presence... despite teaching yoga and movement for years. It’s such an interesting thing to observe!!!! Hope your back heals, thank you for sharing. Xx
Thank you darling. And oooh yes, that fear of meeting the body where it’s at... I know it so well and I’m not sure it will ever go away. I think part of the fear is having to face potential emotions of disappointment or frustration, but also I like to think that it’s also fear of being in the vulnerable presence of something we know hold so much power. We’ve devoted to our bodies time and time again, and gotten to witness the strength, the softness and the awe of what she holds, so many times, and for me, the knowing that she is likely going to take me somewhere entirely new once again can feel a little daunting. I know my body is powerful, and so I often fear meeting her knowing I’ll likely get a glimpse into what she’s also capable of. I’m not always ready to meet that potential. But I’m working on it :) so much love to you and thank you for sharing xx
I love that you have that perspective about the power element... that touches on something I don't think I have cognitively acknowledged but it feels really resonant to me. There is this power in the body that is beyond our control and that is scary at times!!!! I will contemplate this more I am sure, thank you. xx
I feel like I’m caught in between two selves at all times and don’t belong in either place. Like if I were to really show up fully, I’d be alone. Or I’d be harming someone out there.
The more simple limitation is - no one wants to pay for what I want to offer. In other words, most of the things I like to do (art, care work etc) aren’t going to make me rich (like owning real estate or something).
I relate to this so much - never enough of one thing to fully belong. But I’m also realising that most people feel this way about one part of themselves or another. And right beside it, are a million things or people or places or identities we do belong to unequivocally, but we don’t focus there because it’s so normal for us. Definitely something I ponder often.
I also feel your words about your work and how it relates to being rich. I feel like the online space and the general messaging of our time has contributed to so many of us feeling like we need to find that perfect thing that will make us millions, when really it doesn’t work that way. Becoming rich is actually super boring and so incremental that it would never be IG worthy. I’m guilty of wondering ‘why bother’ when things feel so slow or seem like such small steps towards my much bigger and grandiose goals. But it’s a trick - that way we never actually move, start or get the enjoy the process of working on our art.
Yes! I love the idea to focus on the places we belong but don’t notice because it’s so natural. I think that would be a great practice and wonder what would open up.
The process is worth it on its own. You’re so right. I never cared about money in the past and in my efforts to learn more, I’m also grieving the ways I haven’t taken those small steps in the past. There’s so much emotion tied up in it for sure. It’s definitely helpful to consider how much we’re sold a message (of wealth) and not just products.
Thank you for sharing about how moving your body was healing as a mom. I needed to see the example too.